Million Billion Trillion

i keep my running things at: http://twitter.com/TheRuthlessMile which is like facebook updates on amphetamines. started doing it just to keep motivated. and sometimes the web is good when i can't be on the farm and stand in a paddock and scream, i can just quietly log on and say somthing idiodic or profound and then re-read and think i wished sometimes id just shutup. anyway, have landed firmly in it today, after bragging about how little effort i put into an assignment (doing it the hour before due), well i have to re-do it. nice work ruth.familiar tasting pie. i ran today, tonight actually and then in the rain, but i really really sucked, no energy stores but kinda kept up with lady gaga and managed to do my distance but not feel great about it. might figure that im here actually, im distracted by thoughts of running away and i have a plan too. i want to say screw education and this whole farsical nonsense and why can't people just live and learn the stuff that you can only learn by living. but this takes me back and i have to get what i came here for. did i say life is always so good, becuase what i meant by it is that it is so hard. would it be easier if i told myself not to bother thinking for the next 7 months? should i wait for my next pay packet, leave the bank with the food in my pantry and my old basketball cards (i have one that is signed, but chewed, my baby brothers got into them a while back), and then I can just hit the road?